Kash Royce
Hello we are the Zuniga family my husband Max, Myself Estephanie, our 19 year old daughter Serina and our son Kash Royce Zuniga.
Kash’s Story
My son Kash was conceived via IVF on August 6,2021 after 16 years of trying naturally. We had a rough pregnancy from the start. At 5 weeks, we had our first bleeding episode and after that we had several others with no reason given for the bleeding except a possible SCH. I had several trips to the ER for bleeding from August-November never getting any answers any time we were there.
On December 6th, my water broke while eating lunch at home with my hubby. I got up to use the restroom and I started leaking. I was only 20 weeks 1 day. We went to labor and delivery and they ran tests. Finally, they determined my membranes had ruptured and we had 3 options. Terminate the pregnancy, induce labor but baby boy wouldn't make it or wait it out at home and hope to make it to 23/24 weeks and I'd go into the hospital and stay there until I deliver. We made the decision to wait it out and pray baby would stay in as long as possible. I went in for a check up on December 14th, everything was ok except baby had no fluid and I was bleeding. I was sent home. December 16th, I went back to labor & Delivery due to cramping and bleeding again. They did nothing but check me and send me home. Friday December 17th, I relaxed at home and around 10:45pm I went to the restroom and felt something as I wiped I asked hubby to check and he said the unbiblical cord was coming out. We rushed to the hospital and they confirmed I had an unbiblical prolapse. Kash’s heart rate was only 56 and they told me he wouldn't make it and I'd have to deliver him. At 2:30am they gave me medication to induce labor and at 4:43am on December 18 my son Kash was born after 3 pushes. He was perfect in every way, 10 tiny fingers and 10 tiny toes and he looked just like his daddy in every way.
Is there something that helped you and continues to help you through the waves of grief involved in losing a baby? I started group therapy as well as individual therapy and its been helping. Talking about Kash also helps me.
Do you have a favorite moment or experience during your pregnancy and/or after delivery with your baby? Every ultrasound is my favorite moment and getting to hold my baby boy for the first time.
Can you share a difficult moment or experience during your pregnancy and/or after delivery with your baby? Everything about my pregnancy was difficult but nothing compared to the difficult time after losing him. I remember it was Christmas Day and I told my Hulu O no longer wanted to be here and I wanted to be with Kash. He looked at me and begged me not to leave him alone.
What is something helpful others can do for someone who experiences a similar loss? This is hard. I'm a lot different then other people. I've kept my distance from family and friends, I don't answer calls and I don't like having people come over.
How could someone honor and remember your baby now that time has passed? Not too much time has passed since Kash passed. I'm working on something special so we can honor and remember Kash.
Do you have traditions or ways that you remember and celebrate your baby? We look at his pictures every night before bed and hug his blanket he was wrapped in at the hospital
Do you have a quote, book, verse, song that has been a comfort? A quote thaonI saw it either Instagram or Pinterest "I carried your every second of your life, and I will love you for every second of mine.
